Throughout my life, I’ve had a lot of turning points that lead me here. The most recent is the one I will call the Epiphany 25. About 4 months ago, on my 25th birthday, my friends (who are a little older than I) warned me of this big epiphany I would be having at some point in the following year. To be honest, I didn’t know if they were being serious or what to think, but I looked forward to the day I’d be getting this epiphany, if it did come. I didn’t think it would come so early in the year.
I think it hit me either in late February when I was researching one of my favorite photographers, or in March when I went to LA for vacation for four days and dreaded coming home more than ever before. Or more likely, it was a combination of both. So much was happening to me at that time and I’ve been preparing to go back to school, and I think somewhere along the way, it hit me that I was going back to school for the wrong subject, but I’d already met with a counselor and worked on building an SEP so I didn’t really want to change it.
A couple weeks passed, I did what I do best: Research. I researched a lot, about my school’s photography programs and business certificates, about cheap/free ways to travel, how to be successful as a photographer when, chances are, most of your photography will be of the fine art variety.
At some point during all of this research, it hit me. The dream I had when I was younger that I thought had died just resurfaced, I wanted to forget having a stable life and a job that keeps me in one place and I wanted to travel, using photography as a way to fund the travels. At the time, I didn’t know how I’d manage this… being completely honest, I still kind of wonder how I plan on doing most of the stuff I plan on doing, career-wise. It’s an ongoing process and it excites me more than anything has ever excited me in the past, when thinking of a career I actually want to pursue.
As much as this epiphany excites me, it also kind of scares me, especially as time goes on and all of my goals and dreams just keep on growing to be bigger than I meant for it to be. I really can’t wait to see what my Age 25 Epiphany grows to become.